I met a younger guy - he's 19. I met him at a local fast-food burger joint. He gave me the "that's shirt looks good on you" line. Fortunately, there was no one around (that I saw) so I replied with... " I wonder what it would look like on you???" I know its cheesy, but I wanted him to be certain he had a sure deal.

He was kind of cute, kind of femine, but I think now that I am more into the girly boys than just normal every day gay men.

When they are that age they still live at home with mom and dad so we agreed to meet up at a local hotel - just off the freeway and on the south end of town (not likely to have friends/ family stopping there - unless they are into the same thing :). This is conservative state, so there aren't any places that charge by the hour. I have to say, it was like I thought it would be. I actually didn't mind sucking his dick. I wanted him to cum in my mouth so I could experience all of the encounter, but he wasn't able. I know I can't cum from oral so that was no big shocker to me. Although when I was 19 - I used to be able to cum in seconds from a bj sometimes. So it was surprising... in a sense.

Fortunately he had a hairless chest - so I tongue bathed him a bit, sucked on his nipples, etc.

One thing I hadn't considered is that I have TMJ (jaw issue). So my jaw got a little tight when I was blowing him. No, check that: a lot tight...

I didn't fuck him (this time), but I wanted to experience being taken, so I let him fuck me. I was really surprised by it. It initially felt good, like it does when I take a dong up my ass. But then after a while... I didn't feel anything. I mean probably three or four minutes into it I felt these weird spasms deep within. I kind of enjoyed it. The spams felt good I think, and they kind of took my breath away, but not like an orgasm would. So I am not sure what to think of that. He used a condom and it held up.  I know this because  I saw him take it off afterward (boy sure can jiz!!!!) SO guess after all its best that he didn't cum in my mouth. I might have drowned or something.

I did get to experience doggy and me on top (him in me). I think I like them both. Definitely worth trying again. Its really erotic to see my erect cock bouncing around and slapping him on the belly.  The site of that kept me hard all through out our fuck session.

The one thing that I did not like... he wanted to kiss during and after. That grossed me out. I kiss my wife during and after sex, no problem. In fact she doesn't kiss enough. I have kissed women other than my wife and was fine with it. But this I couldn't take. NOt sure if it was because it was a guy, or if it was because I was doing something taboo, a combination, neither, etc. So I guess the moral of the story is he can fuck my ass, but I don't want to be kissed first. Normally, when my boss fucks me, I prefer when he/ she kisses me first. In this instance, no... that represents a barrier. I didn't mind him kissing me on the back though. That was ok.

One thing I did not expect is that my ass was not sore or anything. I mean I could feel a difference between before and after, but no pain, no blood, no problems shitting the days after... so I am guessing all that crap you hear on TV is just that, crap. Unless people aren't using lube or something. I wonder if I ever graduate to forced/ rape stuff if I can get my "attacker" to lube up real good first???

So... I finally did it. So given all of this... what are you thoughts on my sexual orientation? I don't think I can be defined as bi... I don't derive any energy from the idea of guys, other than an erection. I am more on board with the idea of having sexual pleasure from a man or woman... just not sure what to call myself, if its even time to do that...